I have felt the need to just write for a few days now but every time I get a break I don't feel like I have the energy. However - right now the overwhelming desire to write trumps my exhaustion.

There are so many things that I want to process - SO MANY new things that are emerging inside my heart.

I have this sensitivity - i guess some might call them hormones - towards pretty much all aspects of life. I think of my family and how much I ache for them when the oceans are between us and how much I treasure the time with the family that was here, and I cry - I think of my husband and how amazing he is with me, with our son, with all the other things that he has on his plate...his selflessness has caused me to fall in love with him all over again, it makes me cry - I think of my friends here who have been so incredibly generous to us and taken such good care of us, and I cry - I think of the prayer room and how grateful I am that we are here doing what we're doing and that this is our job, and I cry - I think of our beautiful baby boy and how perfect he is, every part of him so beautiful and intricate, and I cry - I think of Jesus and how incredible He is, how beautiful He is how creative He is (creative is a small word for Him - but my own creativity has stumped me and I can't think of a better one), and I cry. I cry a lot. Sometimes the tears are therapeutic - sometimes they're painful - but maybe still therapeutic even when they're painful.

All I know is my heart is filled to the rim. I feel unworthy, I'm keenly aware of how weak I truly am and how gracious and strong our God really is. I'm leaning into Him, crying into His breast in much of the same way that my little teeny, tiny son cries into mine - helpless with nothing really to offer but complete dependence.

This is a wild season filled with revelation - I only hope that I can steward it well, let it take root in my heart and change me forever.

Thank you everyone for all the emails and words of encouragement and blessing you have sent our way. We love you dearly and are so glad you're apart of our lives. More pictures and stories about our cool as kid to come.